The bad news just keeps coming.  I'm feeling a little like a drowning victim at the moment still trying to hang on to those 3 P virtues that are testing my resilience something awful.  Late yesterday afternoon I had another swallow test which I failed horribly so am now off of everything by mouth once again.  Today Dr. Gelfend came in and said he would refer me to an Ear Nose and Throat doctor to assess the damage to my vocal cords and see if there was something they could do to help me.
The day moved along and they have decided to send me home with my feeding tube next week.  This will be a good thing for me as I am not thriving in the hospital environment.  Tomorrow they will train me how to use the equipment and set me up for some home care.  So got that looked after.
Dad was by today and also Trish and Gerry so I have had a good dose of visitors.  Kelli showed up after work and low and behold in walked Dr. Bosche.  He stuck a tube down my nose to look at my vocals and then delivered the shocking news that not one but both vocal cords were paralyzed.  I think my surgeon knew he had cut my left vocal cord but did not seem to think they had affected the right one.  In any case neither right nor left is moving......unbelievable for the girl with the booming gym voice!  He delivered both worse case and best case scenario.  The worst case is just to daunting to even think about so I am choosing to go with the best case instead.  Best case.....my right vocal cord was bruised or stressed and with time, sometimes several months will recover enough that they can then put in an implant to vastly improve the quality of my voice.  The swallow should return in any case so that is good news.  As Dr. Gelfend says every day "tincture of time". Sadly I will have to withdraw as the soloist for the wedding but I am hoping Bill will step in and take over with his lovely voice. Not an easy day and the months ahead will be difficult too.  I do not plan to be a burden to anyone and will just have to hope and pray with all my heart and soul that I"m going to get a little good luck on this one.