Tonights blog will be short.  Just not feeling up to my usual ramble tonight.  Today we saw the blood specialist and were told the news that I have in fact developed a form of leukemia known as CML.  The good new, there is some thought that the two cancers might be linked.  The doctors have never seen anything like this so they are grasping at straws, however, there is a slight possibility that the lesions that are showing up on my scans are related to the leukemia and not the esophageal cancer.  This would be a great thing if it was in fact the case because the treatment for CML is pretty effective in most cases and involves taking a daily pill which brings the white cell count under control.  The side effects sound to be minimal compared to standard chemo therapies.  So, I will return to Calgary where I will be referred to a haematologist who will follow my case from this point forward.  Strangely, I am not sure how to feel about today.  I have had so many disappointments and turns in the road I don't seem to allow myself to feel too hopeful, nor do I go the other direction and feel hopeless.  As we walked down the hall today I looked at Kelli and Bill and said "Strangely, I'm not at all devastated by this news."  In a way I am thinking that perhaps the doctors  may be on the verge of finding some answers to a very perplexing problem.  I do, however, feel tired and a little flat tonight.  Kelli says I've been displaced and have been yet steered in another direction, one that I never saw coming.  Tomorrow, a new day.....a good nights sleep and I shall regroup.  We should hear by Wedneday when my appointment in Calgary will be and will go from there.